I DO? I DON'T?

In sickness and in health, til death do us part?? Those are the vows that we must take in order to prove to someone that we want to spend the rest of our lives with them? I don't know about that. In my opinion, people get married and think that's the end of the audition. Yea you got the role but you must know how to keep it. Vows are a promise to stick it out through thick and thin, but on the flip side of that it is also a prose to love honor and respect. One hand washes the other so if I say I want a divorce because you're a liar then I break my vows?? I'm wrong and ur right?? Let's change the vows!!! I promise to love you, respect you and fuck you good at all times. I promise to be loyal and honest too. I understand that I need to stay on my game to make this marriage work. I promise to never get too comfortable and the minute I start slacking by being unfaithful, disloyal, dishonest, disrespectful and stop making you happy these vows are null and void. Now let's make this work!!
THOSE are the vows that I can get with and I think you should have to renew your marriage certificate every five years, but I guess that's a whole 'nother blog...

Finding your inner strength

Many of us have experienced things in life, whether they were good or bad. What is most important is that we understand the need to get back up, dust ourselves off and get back out there. Do not allow the weight of the world to hold you down. I believe that mistakes are lessons in life that you learned nothing from. It is so imperative to be able to dig down deep within yourself and find that inner strength. We were built to withstand fights, struggles, adversities, heartaches, and so much more. Don’t give up and don’t give in because there is so much to learn. Take the most out of life that you possibly can. That’s what you were put here for. Find your purpose and find your inner strength to LIVE, LEARN, LAUGH AND LOVE…

Unconditional Me

I remember what it was like to hurt. When every breath I took made me feel like an asthmatic. Someone asked me not too long ago if love hurts and my reply was no. Love doesn't hurt, people hurt. I went on to say that love should never hurt. Someone else's response was it you've never been hurt by them then you've never really loved them. I get it now!! Love is an emotion that could make you feel as high as a kite or as low as the ground. Love can be a blessing and a curse. Its easy to say love yourself enough not to hurt, but that's impossible. Once love is nestled in your heart that's when the roller coaster ride begins.
Don't be so hesitant about letting go and allowing yourself to give and receive love unconditionally. If you don't let go and allow love to happen then you might be cheating yourself of something amazing. But if you do allow love to happen and it doesn't work then you are left with regrets.
Its okay to give of yourself just make sure you keep a little bit of yourself so you are not completely lost when its over. Don't regret anything, just remember the good times and learn from the bad. Your time together is your time together, your time apart is the rest of your life. Make it count!!!

FRIENDS

I am incredibly thankful for the many people I have come in contact with throughout my life. While they have not ALL been positive unions, I believe that they were put here to teach me something. It is important to understand that not everyone is introduced into your life to be your FRIEND. It is also important to understand that we are all individuals and we won't always live up to each other's standards. Just as in a relationship, just because a person does not always to what you expect them to do does not mean they are not your friend. A friend is one that will always be there when you NEED them and not whenever you WANT them. I am blessed to have a few people in my life that I can say are my FRIENDS in every sense of the word. To those friends I am so thankful for you. Thank you for inspiring me and motivating me. It's a wonderful feeling to be loved and to love in return. Thank you...

Gun Violence....

Parents always left with the question why
Why did my baby have to die
All at the hands of someone that didn't think
That the trigger they pulled had any consequence
When did guns become our weapon of choice
What happened to standing up and using our voice
When did guns become our choice for fun
Knowing that once a life is taken it can't be undone
People are dying for no reason at all
People of all sizes, big and small
There is no where to hide
there is no place safe
It has no prejudice, it targets no race
Once the trigger is pulled
it takes its aim
It has no friends
because it knows no names
Many more funerals will be planned
Until we command a stand
And guns are banned
From the reckless hands
Planned and unplanned violence
That's spanned across the land
Its killing everyday
and I just can't understand
When do we get back our Holy Land?
Gun violence is taking over so what are YOU gonna do about it
Nothing at all???
Or maybe you will when its your child dead
on the concrete floor

Written in dedication to Marquel Peters Killed By Stray Bullet While In Church With Family on New Year’s Eve.....

What is your purpose?

What if tomorrow never came for me?
How would you remember my yesterdays.............
I would like to be remembered for the woman that made a difference in society
The woman the took a stand And had a hand in ending poverty
I want to be known as a good wife
One who gave such meaning to her husbands life
For the somewhat obedient child
That no matter what always made her mom smile
I want to be known as the mother that took such great care of her boys
The mother that always gave everything from the Love all the way down to the toys
I want to be the proud mother of Two amazing brothers
Two lawyers, two doctors Or better yet, the next Black President and Vice President of America
I want people to stand over my tomb with smiles
and tell story after story about how happy they were that I came into their lives
I want to be that voice
For the people that think they have no choice
I want people to say That I came with a purpose
and my living wasn't in vain
As you all look at my dash or what will one day be
I want it to be overextending in representing what my life really means

Live life the the fullest and be all that you were destined to be. The only person that is stopping you, is you. Live hard, Laugh hard, Love hard... Go Hard or Die soft.
What is your purpose in life???? If you are 30 and over then you should be able to answer this question. If you can't then get to thinking.

Be your BEST...

I thank GOD for the ability to be able to write and express myself freely. There were many points in my life where I felt like I would never become anything more than just a victim. A victim to my own misfortunes. I lost my Daddy at a young age and I miss him everyday that I am alive. I was asked one day if I felt like the absence of my Dad had any effects on my relationships and I sad no. Now, looking back I would have to say yes. Because I didn't have a man in my life growing up to love me, I always felt the need to be loved by men. Admitting this secret to myself has opened up my eyes and my mind and allowed me to see that I didn't need to be loved by a man, I needed to be loved by ME. At 29 is when I can say that I learned to accept all of my misfortunes in life and love ME for who I am. I posses unimaginable strength. I believe that everything happens for a reason and I accept that it is all a part of God's BIG plan. There are many people in my life that have hurt me physically, mentally and emotionally. Well maybe I should say that I allowed them to hurt me... But sometimes you gotta let people be who they are. It is up to you whether you want to accept them and try to guide them or just reject them and move on. I am for empowering men and women to recognize their best potentials and reach for the moon.
I am blessed and I thank God for all the strength and knowledge that he has bestowed upon me. It is my goal to become the BEST me that I can be. I owe it to my children to set a good example of what a MOTHER and a HUMAN BEING should be. If I am to expect the best from them then I need to show them what the best is.
Love yourself enough to accept nothing but greatness from others and life period.

Intrigued by a GOD

Last night I climbed the stairway to heaven while he nestled behind me
Pulling my hair and yelling for God
I wanted him to take me
Not THAT God but THIS God
I was in my praying position, knees on the stairs and my head laying on the landing
Only thing is I wasn't praying or playing
I was getting a taste of what it felt like to be fucked by a God
Downstairs was round two
Back on my knees again
but this time I wasn't praying or fucking
I'm drinking from the fountain of a God

Last Night

I'm stepping in the shower with the scent of his manhood all over my face

I would rather stay sweaty and sticky, instead of washing him away

As I wash myself I imagine they are his hands invading my space

Trying to carry the memories of last night with me today

Reminiscing on how his sex is the best I ever had

We fuck for hours and when it's over I'm mad

Not because I am not satisfied, that's not it all

I just want him to always be knee deep in me, with his dick snuggled in my walls

ADickted to his love? Yeah I will admit

That man lays the pipe down, Damn he is the shit.....