Am I stupid for even putting myself in this predicament? I know he loves me? How? Because he told me. He does so much for me, like paying my rent and bills so why doesn't he just leave her and be with me? Is he ever going to leave his wife? Should I be giving this man head when I know he is fucking his wife? I know I shouldn't but I just want to make him feel so good. I know this is what he likes so I don't want to give him a reason to go and find someone else. Why doesn't he make time for us? Why doesn't he take me out to the movies? Why can't we go out to dinner? Why doesn't he answer the phone when I call him? He always expects for me to be there for him when he needs or wants me; why can't he do the same for me? Why do I have to roll over to nobody and he gets to roll over to his wife? I'm tired of getting flowers every year for Valentine's day. I want to be made love to. Not the day before or the day after. I want to wake up to him on Christmas morning. I want to kiss him at 12am on New Year's. When does it become about ME and not him. I mean he makes me feel good when he is with me, but every time he leaves he takes a piece of my heart with him. How much longer can I do this? Why couldn't I just find a man that wasn't taken. What am I doing here? Why can't I walk away? I am going to wait because I love him. If I keep doing for him and keep going harder, then he will come around eventually.These are not my thoughts. They are the typical thoughts of a mistress. Can you ever be or have you ever been a mistress? If you have then you know what I am talking about. If you have not then you will not be able to relate to these thoughts. Many will feel how they want to feel about this one but don't judge if you have never walked in the shoes of a mistress either. It takes one hell of a woman to play that role.
Just remember, the same reason you feel in love with that man is the same reason she did. So who you mad at?
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